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Yesterday
Posted by Zsanna
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9:37 PM
I just had no energy and mood whatsoever to sum up my day - yes, you guessed well, it was one of those bad ones. Again, I had to sleep at Lilla's room, which was ok, but then I had no choice then being there when these two (Gergő and Mrs. Gergő) were snugging each other constantly. We also listened to Toy Division, which was our music, I mean we listened to that all day when we were lying in my bed with him, and now this girl comes around and says, "at least this will remind you of me..." Blah! Not that I still have feelings towards Gergő, it's just that this was mine, I mean the experience, the music, and now she ruins it!!
Ok, then came my German homework that really pissed me off: I didn't have a dictionary, so I just couldn't express my ideas, which is quite strange for me...
And, now comes the best of all: as I arrived home Lilla's boyfriend informed me that my dad's picture is on all the SZDSZ leaflets in Szeged. After asking my dad why on earth did he agree to that, I broke out crying. I felt like all he said and thought me in my whole life had been a lie (but how NOT to get involved in politics). No time to go into details, but, believe me, it was a real shock to me. Luckily enough, I wrote about it to Judit, and she wrote back one her wise and gentle and full of sympathy emails, explaining what might have made my dad do this. In a way I had to agree that she was right (about how my dad doesn't want to be associated to Fidesz anymore and how hard it must have been for him this pálfordulás of his ancient party that he put so much fate in), but still, I feel deceveid and disappointed, and most of all, that I can not trust in ANY man, not even my dad. I thing that's the worst of all. I know, I must be idealistic or something... I don't know.
The top of the iceberg was Gergő accusing me of how we didn't let him playing the saxophone, which is a COMPLETE bullshit, really!!! I even slept once while he was once practising, and I never, really, never told him not to do so, on the contrary!!! Whatever...
So I came home to Szeged tonight, and going back tomorrow to the sightseeing thing, although I have mixed feelings about that. At least Dave made me clear by his behaviour that he was indeed superficial, and I should and may only make out with him for casual sex. We'll see.
Ok, then came my German homework that really pissed me off: I didn't have a dictionary, so I just couldn't express my ideas, which is quite strange for me...
And, now comes the best of all: as I arrived home Lilla's boyfriend informed me that my dad's picture is on all the SZDSZ leaflets in Szeged. After asking my dad why on earth did he agree to that, I broke out crying. I felt like all he said and thought me in my whole life had been a lie (but how NOT to get involved in politics). No time to go into details, but, believe me, it was a real shock to me. Luckily enough, I wrote about it to Judit, and she wrote back one her wise and gentle and full of sympathy emails, explaining what might have made my dad do this. In a way I had to agree that she was right (about how my dad doesn't want to be associated to Fidesz anymore and how hard it must have been for him this pálfordulás of his ancient party that he put so much fate in), but still, I feel deceveid and disappointed, and most of all, that I can not trust in ANY man, not even my dad. I thing that's the worst of all. I know, I must be idealistic or something... I don't know.
The top of the iceberg was Gergő accusing me of how we didn't let him playing the saxophone, which is a COMPLETE bullshit, really!!! I even slept once while he was once practising, and I never, really, never told him not to do so, on the contrary!!! Whatever...
So I came home to Szeged tonight, and going back tomorrow to the sightseeing thing, although I have mixed feelings about that. At least Dave made me clear by his behaviour that he was indeed superficial, and I should and may only make out with him for casual sex. We'll see.
